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I am sarcasm bordering on boredom
And I think you've said all you have to say
'Cause if it isn't your opinion
It just gets in your way
Right in front of you, all of me
For you to see
What do you have to say
When the veil is taken away
My bedsheets are so tight
Don't dare to dream
Don't dream of begging
You know my silence is diamond
But I've run out of things not to say
The monster is lurking nearby somewhere
And you know I can swallow your glares
My wind, my words blow right through you
'Cause all you can taste is air
When I speak
Speak
Oh, speak
What parts of you are listening?
Speak, just speak
Can't coil it inside anymore
No, no, no
No, no, no
She left long ago
With her Pretty Pretty Princess clique in tow
And there is blood on the snow
From my lips
From my innocence
And the fear, the fear
He's here
'Cause he's got his hands and zippers
I've just got the truth and my whimpers
And I fought
For my mother
For my sister
While the trees watched me die
When I speak
Speak
Oh, speak
What parts of you are listening?
Speak, just speak
Can't coil it inside anymore
When I scream
Do you hear my undertones?
No, I said
I said
I said no
No, no, no
I know I can stomach your glares
Because all you taste is my air
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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Suddenly the lion king was gone from the valley
And when the plebeians bowed their heads
I held mine up high
I guess I'm easy to abandon
I guess I'm easy to leave
I guess that I should be the first done grieving
I was twelve years old, playing monkey-in-the-middle
to your chicken shit
And I hated being a part of it
When I say these scars are homegrown, I hope you know
I call you home
And if every person needs a hell
I think I've found mine
And it's served me well
He said I'm always looking at what I have not
It's not true; I appreciate every second I got
I got
I got
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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Are your eyes closed?
I envy you
Can you turn off your empathy like a light switch?
You fling your words like they're just air
Stone-heavy, they weigh me down
Why am I always left here
Sinking and picking up the pieces
I keep waiting to wake up
I keep waiting to fall asleep
But do you think the smell of summer can soak through
The nightmare we've been living since you
And in case you forget
An addiction is a promise
And you've made a lot of promises to me
But anyways
The clouds can't disappear
Without you here
When'd I become an option and not what you needed
Breathless and scared, I call you
But the days just fall down around me
My calendar claims it's spring
But it hasn't convinced me
The last of your faith sailed away
With the last of my patience
You leave me trembling sometimes
Your, your aftermath
But do you think the smell of summer can soak through
The nightmare we've been living since you
And in case you forget
An addiction is a promise
And you've made a lot of promises to me
Promises to me
But do you think the smell of summer can soak through
The nightmare we've been living since you
And in case you forget
An addiction is a promise
And you made a lot of promises to me
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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There are sluts in my kitchen
Eating our chips
Momma's red-eyed and saying that I've got to
Put up with them
And they're doing doughnuts in the front yard in his cars
And I don't want to be here
And all of our ladies in waiting
Are ready for us to cry, and
You know, it's not what I'd hoped for
But then again it rarely is
And all of the ex's are calling
Wondering if they broke me too soon
And I say, "Hey, it's okay.
Now I can honestly say that I've been through worse."
They sit around me in a semicircle
But don't worry my friends
You won't have to heal me today
'Cause I've pushed it all away
And all of our ladies in waiting
Are ready for us to cry, and
You know, it's not what I'd hoped for
But then again, none of this is
They say that God's with me
But She doesn't know me
So you can keep your blessings
My birthday cake is still on the table
My candles aren't cold yet
Yet, and you are
Yet you are
No more tears, my dear
No more tears, my dear
No more tears my dear, my dear
Be strong for your brother and your sister
Take care of your mother
You have to be the strong one now
Don't cry
'Cause they can't see you cry now
And all of our ladies in waiting
Say it's time for them to go
And I tell them, "Hey, it's okay."
I'd rather be alone to talk to your ghost
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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We're fighting again
Will it pass or is it the end?
I won't apologize for doing what I want
When I've given all I've got
I'm sorry I can't make this sacrifice
When I want to do what feels right
It's too late so I won't even try
To cover the feelings I often hide
And I'm sorry you won't accept me
But I won't change who I am
And when the consequences start to feel heavy
At least I'll know who I am
At least I'll know who I am
If you let this rip us apart
Then we were never very strong from the start
Why can't you understand I'm not the same as you?
And I don't have to do what I don't want to
I know you think your opinion is more important than mine
But why do you always think that you can change my mind?
And I'm sorry you won't accept me
But I won't change who I am
And when the consequences start to feel heavy
At least I'll know who I am
At least I'll know who I am
It's all changing now and you can't stop it
It's falling apart and you can't ignore it
You can't stay sheltered from my feelings forever
You can't stare into the rain and pretend that there's good weather
I've given up maybe you should do the same
Look at our past, and then tell me who's really to blame
And I'm sorry you won't accept me
But I won't change who I am
And when the consequences start to feel heavy
At least I'll know who I am
At least I'll know who I am
Ignore me if you want
Don't see me if you like
Do it if keeps you satisfied
But always know, wherever you go--I stood strong
And I'm so sorry that you won't accept me
But I won't change who I am
And when the consequences start to feel heavy
At least I'll know who I am
And I'm so sorry that you won't accept me
But I won't change who I am
At least I'll know who I am
At least I'll know who I am
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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He's got me in a vice, you know
You don't have to search too hard to see
Everytime I breathe, he's squeezing
And I don't need to flaunt my flaws
To get the attention that I crave
And I don't need someone else's pity
To make me feel like I'm brave
Cause I know that it's all about power
And these secrets keep me in control
Cause everyday I decide how much
I'm going to let them poison my soul
I'm jealous that you hide
And people still listen
I'm jealous you have everything and make up what's missing
And I hate the fact that it's
Your ass that they're kissing
Yes, I know that I'm selfish
And petty, and sad
But I'm so envious of what you don't know you have
So fuck you and your doctor's note
Cause I don't need a degree to know when I'm sad
And I've earned my right to be where I am
And I have much more gone than you
I'm much more gone than you are
Steal my thunder
Steal my rage
Steal everything I've worked to contain
Oh, envy
Oh, this envy
I won't let you know
How much it hurts to be
Aware that even you are blind to me
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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Re-enter the scene
Who is helping me?
His body lying cold
The terror I never told
Premonitions in a record store
A song in my head I've never hummed before
Connections coming together slowly
The princess meets the great big pea
Open fire--I know when your light's gone out
Everyone has heard, the word is out
And if you could swallow us whole
And every cloud I step on is the wrong one
I still owe him an "I love you,"
Will it get through?
The only one who could guide her back to shore
Not sure who I feared for more
We don't die like stars
We are never warned
We don't notice 'til the sky is less adorned
Open fire--I know when your light's gone out
Everyone has heard, the word is out
And if you could swallow us whole
And the question I always to seem to ask
Is did I miss my chance?
To do all that I could
Would he have done what he should
Open fire--I know when your light's gone out
Everyone has heard, the word is out
And if you could swallow us whole
Open fire--I know when your light's gone out
Everyone has heard, the word is out
And if you could swallow us whole
(Firemen on one knee
Talking the kittens down from the tree
I'll get her a glass of water
If it helps
If it helps)
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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Give me a sideways look
Give me something to analyze
I need a reason
I need a distraction
I want treason
I go to sleep but my eyelids swirl
I always knew I was a freak of a girl
I sit here and ask myself how
Wonder why I didn't foresee the girl I am now
When they look at me, can they see
That I want what I can't admit I need
When they look at me, can they tell
I'm still the girl they thought they knew so well
I can't help it, you're puling me
You are my earth, and you are my gravity
And we're all headed straight to your eyes
'Cause the sun's got nothing on them
They hold so much light
Give me a sideways look
Give me something to analyze
I need a reason
I need a distraction
I want treason
I need what you can't admit you want
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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We're all broken dolls
Pieces
Are we too late for stitches
Have we served our purpose
Your playthings
Fragments of our former selves
Pieces
And all of these girls playing catch
With razor blades
We fallen angels are all the same
And I don't know how to make myself happy anymore
I don't how to feel
You better watch what you write down, girl
You don't know who is reading
You better watch what you say outloud, girl
You don't know who is listening
And all this time
All I wanted was somebody to inspire me to care again
And is it wrong to feel like I shouldn't feel like this
And is it wrong to fear feeling anything at all
You said you knew all along
But I, I never told anyone
You said you knew all along
But I, I never told anyone
Hey beautiful
What's it like to know
You're just the test zone for his atom bombs?
I've got the mind of a victim
And sometimes I feel so weak
How am I supposed to live with me?
I just don't know about anything anymore
Pieces
All lyrics and music © Just Plain Sarah 2004
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released January 4, 2005